Don't expect to see the woman you claim to be in the next futur ( with the life that goes with her) in the eyes of others, strangers...
All you need to know is to drive on your own way....straight to the essential. And this essential is your happinness, a life fearless, for you and your daughter. And i'm sure you're right when you said that is all above everythings. I still don't have child at the moment...but deeply enough to say that, i can feel what you mean when you wrote it.
I don't have to know what was happenning to you previously, but it seems quite obviously that something bad happenned thoses last days. I do hope indeed that it was not THAT bad for yourself. Self destruction is not the out-gate, the solution, of course and you have to look in front of yourself, to the sun, to the light, to this warm feeling that remind you that you are just a humain girl, with a baby lady and that you need to know that all the essential are just there. in front of yourself. Inside yourself. So far.
We all crossed deadlines, bad people, bad spirits. Who cares finally ? You'll meet the good ones when you will be free already. The bad things are often happening when your mind is in a bad mood. i guess bad mood attract bad spirit. Just go for it, go straight away....stay as you are but more thrustfull in this life.
I hope it's better since you came back in your precious island anyway.
I think of you this morning, when I swim. Completely fascineted by the fishs dancing in the water, I wondered how many sorts of fishs you saw :) I try to remind me all this little population I see and after, to draw with the memories. Is a game and also a desire to have a kind of book as it made a herbarium. I don't even speak of butterflies <3
well, i did saw a lot. i mean A LOT ! But...the underwater world is totally mysterious even for human after few decades. Diving aloow to human to see the depths and theirs wonders but....there are too many things that fortunately, it should be impossible to see everythings. I saw a lot. Because of my job, but also because of my eyes, and my fear in nature. i trained my self to read the reef rocks to find mini invisible stuffs... It took me ages to found my first scorpion fish. When i did it.....i became the specialist of this weird research since it's a totallly mimic fish so, totally hard to find on the reef. But....when you feel them, when you think of them......once you are in the depth and your breath is finally quiet/calm enough that all is close to meditation, then, you can see then.
My favourite thing underwater, like many others things...is to spot Nudibranch. Have a look on google to see. I'm sure, you will draw thoses magnificient beauty, inspired colours and amazing frame. A nudibranch is more powerfull then anything to me. It's totally captivating me. Like hypnose. I can totally fucked up my dive plan when i cross the road of a nudibranch. And....anything can happen behind me.
have a look and tell me more :): https://allencentre.wikispaces.com/file/view/nudibranch5.jpg/156393163/nudibranch5.jpg
I never had the chance to see this one i show above.
I saw a lot. Expecially in the Celebes sea of the north sulawesi in Indonesia. I found a lot also where i have been working in Hakuraa island, in the Maldives. Sometimes, depths are just...........beyond any word can express. Wonders are not a matter of size. Many people are hunting shark to see how big and agressiv they can be, but....they are not. They are amazing just because of them but not size.
Nudibranch are simply magic. and so small......sometimes, you need a google glass to spot them. and this electric blue, or deep red, or this pinkish skin or this green yellow back.......
Don't expect to see the woman you claim to be in the next futur ( with the life that goes with her) in the eyes of others, strangers...
RépondreSupprimerAll you need to know is to drive on your own way....straight to the essential. And this essential is your happinness, a life fearless, for you and your daughter.
And i'm sure you're right when you said that is all above everythings. I still don't have child at the moment...but deeply enough to say that, i can feel what you mean when you wrote it.
I don't have to know what was happenning to you previously, but it seems quite obviously that something bad happenned thoses last days.
I do hope indeed that it was not THAT bad for yourself.
Self destruction is not the out-gate, the solution, of course and you have to look in front of yourself, to the sun, to the light, to this warm feeling that remind you that you are just a humain girl, with a baby lady and that you need to know that all the essential are just there. in front of yourself. Inside yourself. So far.
We all crossed deadlines, bad people, bad spirits. Who cares finally ?
You'll meet the good ones when you will be free already.
The bad things are often happening when your mind is in a bad mood.
i guess bad mood attract bad spirit.
Just go for it, go straight away....stay as you are but more thrustfull in this life.
I hope it's better since you came back in your precious island anyway.
;) take care.
Anne
I stop to draw since 10 minutes, and I read your message now.
RépondreSupprimerI think I don't have to answer, because I draw :)
i can feel the positive vibration and i like that !
RépondreSupprimer:)
love it.
I think of you this morning, when I swim.
RépondreSupprimerCompletely fascineted by the fishs dancing in the water, I wondered how many sorts of fishs you saw :)
I try to remind me all this little population I see and after, to draw with the memories.
Is a game and also a desire to have a kind of book as it made a herbarium.
I don't even speak of butterflies <3
well, i did saw a lot. i mean A LOT !
RépondreSupprimerBut...the underwater world is totally mysterious even for human after few decades. Diving aloow to human to see the depths and theirs wonders but....there are too many things that fortunately, it should be impossible to see everythings.
I saw a lot. Because of my job, but also because of my eyes, and my fear in nature. i trained my self to read the reef rocks to find mini invisible stuffs...
It took me ages to found my first scorpion fish. When i did it.....i became the specialist of this weird research since it's a totallly mimic fish so, totally hard to find on the reef.
But....when you feel them, when you think of them......once you are in the depth and your breath is finally quiet/calm enough that all is close to meditation, then, you can see then.
My favourite thing underwater, like many others things...is to spot Nudibranch. Have a look on google to see. I'm sure, you will draw thoses magnificient beauty, inspired colours and amazing frame.
A nudibranch is more powerfull then anything to me. It's totally captivating me. Like hypnose.
I can totally fucked up my dive plan when i cross the road of a nudibranch. And....anything can happen behind me.
have a look and tell me more :):
https://allencentre.wikispaces.com/file/view/nudibranch5.jpg/156393163/nudibranch5.jpg
I never had the chance to see this one i show above.
I saw a lot. Expecially in the Celebes sea of the north sulawesi in Indonesia.
I found a lot also where i have been working in Hakuraa island, in the Maldives.
Sometimes, depths are just...........beyond any word can express.
Wonders are not a matter of size. Many people are hunting shark to see how big and agressiv they can be, but....they are not.
They are amazing just because of them but not size.
Nudibranch are simply magic. and so small......sometimes, you need a google glass to spot them. and this electric blue, or deep red, or this pinkish skin or this green yellow back.......
:)